At her debut solo concert in July this year, Musya Totibadze first looked at the crammed yard of the Strelka Institute, and then fulfilled the dream of, if not all musicians, then certainly many - she jumped from the stage straight into the crowd. This usually takes many years, but she did it on a whim and immediately. But first of all, the conversation still turns to fear and doubt. “It has never happened to me that I was singing only my own material. Needless to say, how scared I was? - she says. "I was afraid that people would not remember the lyrics, that they would not want to sing along." However, all the compositions of her debut album "Boy", as well as the singles "Truth About Love" and "Dance, Vitalik", who came to the concert that evening knew by heart and did not hesitate to shout down the singer. There are too many motives in her laconic texts that are close to everyone: “What a pity,that after the autumn there will be no spring”- but really, who is not sorry? “Don't miss your chance, why are you silent?” - how many times did any of us repeat the same thing to ourselves? “And miss a movie session, but you and I don't care” - why not a dream?
However, if someone else chanted them, with a different intonation and in a different context, these lines could probably sound pretentious. However, they multiply on the charisma of a sincere red-haired girl with a gentle home name Musya.
Before moving on to compositions of her own composition, Musya Totibadze performed with cover versions of hits ranging from Alisha Keys to Sofia Rotaru. Explaining the difference between performing her own and someone else's, she quickly recalls painting: “When this is your material, there is a moment of exhibitionism, you are not covered by anything, as in the case of a cover, when you are exactly the same on stage, but the text is is no longer yours and you cannot experience such freedom. It's like being an artist and trying on the style of Cezanne or, say, Matisse. It seems to have hit the color, it seems similar, but not that, not for real."
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The comparison for Musya is not accidental. The daughter of the artist Konstantin Totibadze, the niece of the artist Georgy Totibadze and the sister of the artist Anton Totibadze, she has been surrounded by art since childhood. She herself studied guitar, was fond of vocals, and decided to enter the Moscow Art Theater School on the course of Igor Zolotovitsky. From there, a year later, she transferred to GITIS, at the directing department, to become one of the "curls", as they call the students of Oleg Kudryashov's workshop in theater circles. Having graduated from the university, Musya did not go to the repertoire theater, preferring to some kind of freelance. Among the performances with her participation - "Hypnos" by Oleg Glushkov at the Praktika theater, "Lovers" by Svetlana Zemlyakova at the Theater of Nations, her "Meetings. In the space of parting "on the stage of the Workshop of Peter Fomenko and the upcoming premiere -" The Tale of the Last Angel ",which Andrey Moguchy is rehearsing now at the Theater of Nations.
Musya ponders the question of who she is in the first place - a musician or an actress, admitting that there are more and more situations when she has to make this choice. And then, smiling modestly, he replies: "If someone introduces me, I would be pleased to hear the definition of" musician "after my name."
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"Run away from here to the ends of the world and listen to old cassettes"
“We have always listened to very different music in the family. Of course, it could not do without the great hits of Shatunov and the Mirage group, which were staged at parties if everyone wanted to dance. When I was studying guitar, I had, let's say, an arthouse period, I really liked guitarists, Joe Satriani and Jaco Pastorius, for example. I loved Nirvana as a teenager - we had tapes and CDs. And I always love Tsoi - this is generally my favorite person on Earth. Sometimes, to get everything in your head, you just need to turn it on. If we talk about the past, we like it so much because we have not been there. These costumes, hairstyles, makeup: immediately there is a feeling of "wow, that was the time" Now this is all some kind of exotic, but then it was not a pose, but rather an everyday life.
We have a huge collection of photographs in our family, and I sometimes revisit them. For some reason, I don't have a feeling like "God, how long has it been." I try, on the contrary, to remember my impressions of this time. When my brother and I were little, we lived in Paris, because my grandmother lived there. And they came to her on vacation. I have very happy memories and moments, and when you catch them inside yourself, you become happier, as then, in childhood, you again feel lightness and irresponsibility."
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"Hair is loose, a beautiful dress and a slight blush on a young face"
“As a child, I loved to dress up, and when I entered the theater, I realized that there was either dressing up or an extra hour to sleep. Guess what I chose. I can't say that now I have a desire to dress in some special way, but there was a period when I wanted to buy some dresses for myself. It was just pleasant for me then. And this is how you can look smart in a T-shirt, but feel terrible in the most wonderful dress. In general, first of all, you need to dress up your soul. We had a game as a child with my sister. We took out some things from the closet, dressed up in them, glued nails from plasticine, walked around the room from corner to corner and sang a song that no one knew. And I still remember the motive, there were only two words: "fashion-pre-fashion". There were no telephones and no computers either, so I had to play in fashion. Mom had powder. Naturally,no one allowed us to take it, but when my mother left … And it was powder with colorful balls. She smelled like that. I remember that I often thought: when I grow up, I really want to smell like that. And I spoiled it all the time, even though it stood high to the right of the door with the mirror. It was difficult to get it."
Men's suit and shirt, sandals - all Gucci
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"It often happens, and we do not dare, but happiness leaves, we do not meet with him"
“I just want to show my manicure. I couldn't choose the sparkles, I didn't understand which ones I liked better, so I had to do everything at once. In general, as you already understood, decisiveness is not my strong point. But at some point I had to sharply learn to make decisions. I have not yet fully succeeded in this, so that I do not grind and reflect. Accepted and accepted, everything, continue to act. I would like more confidence and decisiveness in my actions, thoughts, actions, and all the time I try to give some chance to a situation or a person, to the whole space that surrounds me. Sometimes it seems to me that I have such a role, including in the family - to smooth things out a little. So in terms of decisiveness, I still have flaws, I haven't updated my iOS yet, as they say."
Men's shirt and trousers are all Gucci; Christian Dior pumps
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"Fantasy, romance - we can do everything"
“I won't say that I am an optimist, but I would like to find a way out of situations. The words that there are no hopeless situations is probably an exaggeration for someone, but it is important for me to realize more often that all this is needed for something. That everything is really for some better.
I do not have enough romance in our life in general. And today, and in music. Cynical time now, or something. We have all become selfish. And this is reflected in the actions. And the right thing to do is to come to a person to feed him, or to shout at the window, to sing a serenade.
I'm not a good example, but I want to write music that will bring romance back. Here is Anna German, everything is so tender with her: "I am scared to imagine now that you would open the door to the wrong one, walk the wrong street, you would not meet me, you would not find me." You sit and you are torn to pieces. I'm probably too romantic person. I believe in all sorts … In all lies, in general."
Photographer Dima Cherny, assistant photographer Iskander Shaikhutdinov, stylist Ekaterina Pavelko, assistant stylist Ekaterina Titova, makeup artist Anna Khomenko.>